Random thoughts

So, I decided that I needed to blog something...something fun.

I asked my children for a topic. This has worked in the past and I have actually had some interesting (whatever...I thought they were interesting) blog posts! So, I texted both children -- these were legit texts; Garrick is in Idaho and Natalie is upstairs!!! Natalie said, "Text about lazy people" to which I asked for her second choice to which she replied, "IDK...LOL." Not much help. Garrick said, "Text about stupid parking tickets" to which I replied that I never got a parking ticket to which he indicated "I DO!"

So, that really left me without a topic to blog about. I thought about blogging something intellectual, but then I thought I did not want to think that hard about it. I thought about writing something funny, but I my mind went completely blank. I thought about writing about my wonderful, wonderful family...but I even get tired of listening to how wonderful they are. I thought about my oh-so-great Maggie...but she is a dog, she does dog things...But I tell you this about Maggie -- Today, I was sitting in my office typing away (not really, I was probably doing anything but work) and Maggie walks in and she has an article of clothing in her mouth. I take it out wondering what the heck...it turns out it is a pair of children's, probably boys, short pants! I have not had a boy that little in about 20 years. I have some concerns! There was no body attached to the shorts, but, Maggie does dig a bit and there is a new covered-up hole in the yard -- just sayin'! I wont mention the socks that Maggie eats and then throws up...I will save that little story for another day! I could tell you all about my wonderful mini vacation to Pismo Beach a couple of weeks ago when I road a horse and laid out on the beach...but...I don't know.

So I thought I would share some random thoughts:

The Moon -- There was such a beautiful full (new? IDK, I should have paid a little more attention in school) moon a few weeks ago. I could see it from my window from my desk. I got to thinking about the moon and how it is nothing without the sun. I got to thinking that the moon needs the sun to shine, it needs the sun so people can see it, it needs the sun to survive. I think I need the sun, too.

New Shoes -- New shoes last Saturday at the mall. Buy one, get one FREE. Hello? Who would NOT get two new pairs of shoes?

Lavender Laundry Detergent -- Apparently, my skin does not think this is as great as I think it is! Thought it was! Anyone want a slightly used bottle of laundry detergent?

Speaking of laundry... I wonder when that guy is going to invent a machine that does both the washing and the drying!! I wont even ask for one that folds and puts away...baby steps.

Fall TV -- Really? Jimmy Johnson on Survivor? Really?

Allergies -- Dealing with some sinus problems again. Gotta love the fall!

Dallas Cowboys -- Really? Losing to Washington? Really? My dad, he would have LOVED that game. He would have called to let me know of his joy! (Miss you, Daddy)

Facebook -- Don't say you have a job if you don't! Don't ask me to friend you if you know I wont.

Thank you notes -- Michelle, my so-very-best friend in Stockton, borrowed some thank you notes from me...She sent me one, thanking me for the notes!!! LOL -- priceless.

Pledge Multi-Surface Cleaner -- Frickin' Genius. G. E. N. I. U. S.

Texts -- Why do I get so happy when I hear my little text chime go off?

and just because it is my blog and I can do what I wanna do --- I love my fantabulous family!!! I have the best Famn Damily EVER!! Kids call to say they love me. Brother calls to say he worries about me. Cousin texts to laugh about a FB thing. Aunt calls me just because she loves me. Husband loves me and ... he does the laundry!! Maggie is the best doggie ever!!

"From the fullness of His grace we have all received one blessing after another", John 1:16. My blessings --- my family.

XOXOXO

And...a month goes by.

And...a month goes by.

If you know me at all, you know that I dream. I am a dreamer. I dream big, I dream often, I dream happy, I dream sad. I dream of things yet to come and I relive some memories of old. I dream good and I dream bad. I have dreams that take me to the highest of mountains with the one I love to the lowest of dark places where I am alone. I have dreams that literally take me to the front door in search of something (thank heavens I have a loving husband who always walks me back to bed). I dream of things that wake me up with a startle. I have dreams that make me laugh and some that make me cry. I have dreams that as soon as I wake up, I close my eyes and try to go back to sleep so I can dream those dreams again. I have dreams where I am awoken and hope to never close my eyes again.

I have dreams of people. People who I love. Some who I don't even know, but feel that I will meet them at some point. I have dreams of those who have passed with what I think are messages just for me. My grandmother, who I really did not know, came to me in a dream and told me that she was ready for me to do some things for her. My grandfather, who I did know, has come to me and told me things. I have dreamed of babies...my babies? I don't know. But I feel like they were mine in some way. I feel a connection to them in ways only a mother could feel.

I have yet to dream of my daddy. This saddens me. I don't know why. I think, after overworking it in my head over and over again, that he has not come to me for two reasons: First...I have really yet to accept the fact that he is no longer here. I expect him to call me on those Sunday's when my Cowboys choked to give me a chance to change my mind and to go with a different team. Or to call me and ask if my house has been shaken off its foundation by an earthquake. I am waiting for those calls. The second reason is because I think he is just too busy! He is seeing people who he has not seen or never seen and being reacquainted with his family from long ago. He is figuring out how to go on without his loved ones as we sit and try to go on without him.

My heart aches with deep sadness. I miss my father, my daddy. I hope he looks down on me and is not too disappointed in me! I hope he knows my thoughts and my intentions are good. I hope he knows that I love him and I miss him more than words can say. I hope he is waiting for me when I return home.