Maybe, someday.

I was channel surfing on Sunday night waiting for "Downton Abbey" to come on and I came across a Tom Cruise film that I don't think I had seen before.  It was called, "Knight and Day" with Cameron Diaz.  I didn't watch the whole thing but there was a line that kinda stuck with me.  "Someday. That's a dangerous word. It's really just a code for 'never'."

Oh my gosh, how true is THAT?!?!?  How may times in a year do I say "Someday?"  Someday this will happen.  Someday I'll travel here with you.  Someday that will happen.  I never thought as I was saying it that I really meant this was never going to happen.

It made me think about the "other code word" I use a lot...."Maybe."  Generally, maybe means no.  "Are you going to go to Moo Moo's for lunch?"  "Maybe," I reply.  Knowing that I am surely not going out for lunch and I am surely not going to Moo Moo's alone if I do.  Sometimes I may ask myself, "I wonder if this dream will ever come true?" I answer with a "Maybe."  Perhaps dreaming that it may, but in my heart knowing it wont.

So, I thought again (I know...Tom Cruise brought on all this deep pondering?!?), about the times I have have said, "Maybe, someday."  Oh my heck....what a double negative!!  "Will we ever travel to Paris and have a wonderful, romantic time?"  "Maybe...someday."  I guess, that means we will never, never make it there.  I hope the one I ask of that will not reply with the same response.  I want the guy I love with all my heart to answer, "Oh yes, my love, we will certainly be there one day."  No someday...no maybe.  

With all that said, I will still, without a doubt, reply with a "Someday" and with a "Maybe."  However, I hope as I am uttering those words, I will really think about what I am saying and change the code.  When I say those words, especially together, I will smile to myself and think, "Yes, Velvet, you will.  No code words here."

Will I see my father again....Maybe someday.
Will we find happiness beyond measure....Maybe someday.
Will this dark cloud of deep depression ever move away from above me....Maybe someday.
Will I get my fairytale ending....Maybe someday. 

Oh yes, that felt good.

XOXO